this is not a music topic and not starting like a happy topic but i had to get it out of my chestway before internet becoming global let alone the forums i have been to i had lost my first son to some cardiac condition which has caught some different generations of my family and from then i had a bit of issues but i was kinda fine with time maybe because i was younger and said to myself i'd have thanks to God other children but something was building inside me and totally exploded in 2008 when i lost another to same issue and it coincided with a almost desert surrounding outside music friends and vieux who are for most in kin and later forums then the odd friends coming back sometimesand the forums(this one and its "father" who we know) helped me one hell lot,first with english, i have surely spoken english 10 times more here than in my daily life( strange aint it lol)second with recovering confidence to go back to work and try to have as normal life as possible,and thanks God i have had my little bad boy,i have done some therapy too but this forum has probably been my best one so i just wanted to thank you all my brothers and sistersyou have brought back to be the other most important thing to life,aside health,which is happinessat this moment my neighbour is not there,so i can put music a tiny bit loud and try to replicate the most complicated koyimbiko ever but you wont see ohhh (this is the best cardio exercise i swear )
Quote from: archos on January 22, 2020, 21:11 this is not a music topic and not starting like a happy topic but i had to get it out of my chestway before internet becoming global let alone the forums i have been to i had lost my first son to some cardiac condition which has caught some different generations of my family and from then i had a bit of issues but i was kinda fine with time maybe because i was younger and said to myself i'd have thanks to God other children but something was building inside me and totally exploded in 2008 when i lost another to same issue and it coincided with a almost desert surrounding outside music friends and vieux who are for most in kin and later forums then the odd friends coming back sometimesand the forums(this one and its "father" who we know) helped me one hell lot,first with english, i have surely spoken english 10 times more here than in my daily life( strange aint it lol)second with recovering confidence to go back to work and try to have as normal life as possible,and thanks God i have had my little bad boy,i have done some therapy too but this forum has probably been my best one so i just wanted to thank you all my brothers and sistersyou have brought back to be the other most important thing to life,aside health,which is happinessat this moment my neighbour is not there,so i can put music a tiny bit loud and try to replicate the most complicated koyimbiko ever but you wont see ohhh (this is the best cardio exercise i swear )Last year our communtity of Congolese people in Italy lost a member a beloved friemd he was only 14 and about to turn 15, there are no words to describe the pain, the disbelief and the sadmess of seeimg someome younger than you amd with all of his life ahead dying. I feel you brother. I still don't have sons or daughters but I can feel your pain.I have battle with depression and suicidal thoughts when I was younger due to bullying and abuse by my mom and supposed "Friends" and I know how it is wonderful to have someone or a group of people you cam talk to. I hope you are alright now